Philippines Internet Connection makes me cry and hopeless

Philippines internet connection makes me cry

 

I am forcing myself now to be back online after my emotional breakdown last night. I was crying and so down because our internet connection at home was so bad.

Sounds so shallow right? some may say it is just an internet girl! and there are many people now suffering more than my problem.

Well, it might be true my problem may not be a problem at all for some.

But the internet is the only sword I know so far to continue my battle.

 

My career of more than a decade evolves sitting in front of the computer. Where in, the internet is its life, without it I will be idle at my workstation.

When the COVID pandemic badly hits my work industry, I do not have a choice but to face the reality of starting back my life here in the Philippines. Staying overseas in this situation looks so risky for me. Aside from safety reasons, financial stability is another factor why I opt to stay here for now. Surviving abroad without work is extremely hard for OFW like me.

I am thankful that I am at home, safe, and comfortable with my family. However, deep inside I feel so sad and questioning why it is tough to start again.

There comes a time that I am wishing I have the skills of other persons I knew. I was wishing that; I hope I have their talent in making a simple business to succeed. They are so creative in producing a business idea, while some are good at selling their homemade items from sweets, meals, and all kinds of food.

I reach a point that I am questioning myself on why I am not good at anything? Why my skills never improve…

There are lots of thoughts, that are playing in my mind day and night. I know I am just stressed out as this is the longest time I am not working at all.

During the first stage of job hunting online I was so positive. But every time I am receiving a not good response about my internet connection capacity, I am feeling down

 

Philippines Internet Connection

I was applying for the position of a virtual assistant job or research and data entry specialist. The first step was easy and looks promising. I even passed for the assessment, but when they required me to submit a screenshot of my internet speed test they never reply or simply said I did not pass. The same thing happened to my husband.

Because of that, I am losing my motivation to land on a home-based job. I decided to stop for a while now in applying till we have our PLDT line connection back. This issue with PLDT is pending for almost 2 months now. While my globe prepaid connection back up is not enough to qualify to be a Virtual Assistant.

Want to raise your complaint with PLDT? here is their complaint board

Without a job for months is so frustrating, I feel that my brains are not functioning well now. I cannot stay longer being idle, I felt so lazy doing nothing at home. Thankfully, I have my Pinayexpat website, this has been my strength, every time I am feeling a brain freeze.

My blogging is not just a hobby, I am valuing this as well. For years I am earning a little amount from my AdSense and a small fee from those who like to advertise to my website. This adds to my frustration as for the past days our globe internet connection is getting slower and worst. Even a little article could not be uploaded.

That is the reason why I cried last night. From 09:00 am I am trying to post an article but not loading at all. I waited till midnight, thinking that speed will be better compare during the daytime, unfortunately there is no improvement.

Hubby just saw me crying hard in front of my laptop, looks so tired and hopeless.

Philippines Internet connection frustrating

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I do not know who we should blame why our country’s internet stability is always an issue. Like everyone else, I am wishing that this point will be fixed. Many people are relying on their life, source of income from this… We are crying for not having the internet not just because we want to waste our time online, but we are trying our best to work online. All of us are hoping that the Philippines internet connection gets better as much as possible.

After my minutes of crying I slept, it was a deep sleep.  7 hours later I woke up, thanking God for this new day. Though the situation has not changed that rest helps me improve my mood. I will try my best to not affect my emotions of this uncontrollable things. I hope I can …

 

If you are an OFW who got home because of this Pandemic and want to share your story of starting back or life adjustment in the Philippines please share us. I can feature it with my next post, and it will surely help many affected OFW to remain optimistic despite these trials. Thanks for dropping by & stay safe! (My email: pinayexpat.com@gmail.com / admin@pinayexpat.com)


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